what the fuck
Broke With Expensive Taste & A Minimum Wage Paying Job: A Memoir
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So in January of 2013 right around exam time I became really depressed and I absolutely hated myself. Nothing was making me happy and I constantly had suicidal thoughts. I hated everything about myself and started to become anorexic. For like 3 days all I had was one tiny cookie a day and then my mom found out and she forced me to eat (which I totally thank her for). Whenever I would get upset I would stop myself from eating and there was even a time or two or three where I forced myself to vomit. In my head this was my way to achieve control over the uncontrollable. So fast forward to around the end of July 2013 to beginning of August 2013. I slowly became worse and worse so my mom set up an appointment with a psychologist. After a few visits my psychologist came to the conclusion that all of my problems pretty much came from OCD. My mind was trying to find ways to cope with the lack of control I had over things that were/are out of my control. My OCD is so bad that I can’t leave the house without counting on my fingers the number of events that should have occurred (example starting on my left hand, idk why the left hand I just need to start on that one, woke up-ate-got dressed- etc. each event is on a different finger). I have to do this multiple times before I leave the house or else I get extremely nervous or paranoid that I’m not prepared for wherever I’m going. That’s just one of many examples. Anyways I just wanted to share this part of my life because things like OCD need to be taken seriously and it bothers me so much when people just throw the word OCD around because they actually don’t know how serious it is. If you read all of this, thank you xoxo
what if i died in like twenty years and all i left my girlfriend was a box and like she gasps and reaches down to her chest where her key necklace hangs that i gave her twenty two years ago, and she uses it to unlock the box and all that is in there is a string which you can pull to reveal an embarrassing photo of spongebob at the christmas party